Fur Elise-Beethoveen

seandainya aku bisa mentransformasikan semuanya dalam not angka..
dan mengimplementasikannya dalam tuts piano..
=))

Percakapan Kesunyian (adjusted)

Prolog
Satu malam dalam balutan kekosongan, memanggil jiwa untuk menerjemahkan percakapan antara renungan dan kesunyian..

Part I
Dengarkan percakapan jiwa..
ketika renungan memanggilmu untuk bermain dalam pikiran
renungan yang mungkin sesekali bisa..
melipur jiwa yang mengerang,,
membasuh sukma yang rapuh..
merekahkan bunga yang layu dalam kelahiran semerbak mimpi..


dan percakapan jiwa itu muncul,,
ketika insan karam dalam arus malam
ketika temaram bulan yang pucat membelenggu langit kelabu..
namun aku masih disini...
memikirkan hal-hal yang tak pasti..
tapi aku percaya dan butuh untuk percaya..
bahwa sesuatu yang luar biasa..

adalah mungkin terjadi :)

what I thought on 200909

Perfecy by nature
and termination that I face
extreme value has been reached
caused ruin of empire
zenith of fool
just meaningless something
Immortality of bliss is nothing
I'm sure that none cant find truly joy...
Coz basically, every happiness save sorrow..
sorrow in deep heart that none can paint...none can illustrate...
But, a withdrawn can see it

And a withdrawn share her thought...
"Your rescuer is your self, when none can rely on and whole world is gone,
And a rescuer always find a lot of pain, cruelity and violenlce of life throughout her way...It's sure...
Then, a rescuer cry in your soul, lament it's fated...feel the life is vain..."

Rescuer asked,
"I'm just innocent thing in everybody's soul but why life is so cruel to me? why whole world leave me when I am nothing?
Many people said about their perfect life, their dream... I'm so bored to hear it...coz I'm not ambitious to pursue something..I dont want to dream too high beyond my limit of ability..
I just want to feel happiness in my life, not more..
spending all of life with laugh and joy..
And just wanna breath easily before my breathe one's last...
not more,and just it.."

Then a sound breath a word softly...
"Rescuer just you that can help your self to survive..
keep fighting and steadfast on your way...
No matter about how much you fail, how much you cry, how much your fear...
No matter about what they said or done about you
No matter what the problems is beyond your limit...
Your life must go on and keep on your way..
God never ask you to success, but God ask you to never give up...
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Finally,
Maybe I'm just negative thinking person that stare life with my pessimist glasses...
But I try to spell the meaning of words "oppurtunityisnowhere" as the true equations of life.. Prove it coz one truth must be prevailed...

quest of query

here I go...
walking between truth and lie
standing between idealism and realism..

I can expalain bilss as sorrow..
and sorrow as bliss
and the words I use to explain is infinite like world with whole universe


I see logic is a primary reason to describe truth and ignoring others..
therefore,, I usually use logic to learn and to make decision..

However...someday,, I looked up and conscious that...
logic isn't enough to describe reasons and whole truth..

because not all things is plain,,,
sometimes, we'll find invisible things that some of logical things can't be found in there..
and the way to see that things, I called as art...
art to see other side..
art to pour
to be painted..
into words,, thoughts,, ideas,,music,,paints and many others...


so, we need to be guided, not only by logic..but also by our sense..our intuitive...to think deeply..
to create precious things...and to create a decision soberly...


I know that combination of both will make me understand many things in life,,
and also..how to solve what they said about..
mysterious equation...complex maze...and unknown enigma...
and of course,,my long quest....


and, I'll derive an equilibrium into curve so the life will be in balance place,, as possible as I can do,,
and you'll know that there will be no assume for eternity of equilibrium...
but there are always constraints to reach it...
it's prevalent and unavoidable....


and I'm just ordinay human who can make mistakes..
but I believe
no matter how weaknessess,, everyone can achieve their success with their own way...
so above all things,, I try to reverence my self...


cos the first step to understand the meaning of infinite world..


is let you just be your self...

dawn pray

dingin pagi itu terlalu menusuk..
membuat luka yang menganga ini makin sakit..
huuft..
no matter how it end..
no matter how..
no matter again...

I wish...

my immortal

I'm so tired being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you'll just leave
cos your presence still linger here
and it wont leave me alone

these wounds wont seems to heal
these pain is just too real
there's just too much that time can not erase

you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I hold your hand through all of these years
you still have all of me


you used to captivate me by your resonating mind
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your face is chased away all the sanity in me


I've tried so hard to tell my self that you;re gone
but toe your still with me..I've been alone all along

selalu begitu

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